I have been fascinated by time for as long as I can remember. Clocks amaze me,

I even saved up my money to buy one of the first LED digital watches wen I was in High school.

I keep my clocks set to national bureau of standards time. I have an atomic clock in my living room. I even own a radio that only tunes the signal from WWV (Radio Shack Time Cube). I have the phone number for WWV programmed into my phone.

I work in a business that is based on schedules. Contracts have time clauses in them.

My favorite sport for many years was Time Speed Distance road rallying that requires you to arrive at a hidden checkpoint at exactly the correct time.  Now I enjoy endurance racing that requires me to set a driver schedule based on time before the race and I analyze laps times after the race in a massive spread sheet.  I am very familiar with all the math functions and time formats in excel.

My whole identity revolves around time.

Now I learn that time is an illusion!  No wonder it is so hard to measure time.  Measuring first three dimensions is easy. Just use a ruler.  But measuring time requires massively complicated devices.

How do I reconcile this concept of no time when my whole identity is wrapped up in measuring time?

My new meditation is: there is no past there is no future, there is only now. * I am having a hard time with this concept.